The Fatal Passion.

  How like a part too deeply fixed in me,
  A shadow where the substance lies behind,
  Is this sweet wood. I cannot grasp my thought,
  But see it swell around me in these trees,
  These layers of glistening leaves, and swimming full
  In the blue, modulated heaven o’er all.
  I would embrace you kindred tenements,
  Where dwells the soul by which I deeply live.
  But ye are silent; they call you emblems,
  The symbols of creation, whose memory
  Has failed in its behest, and so ye stand
  Merely dumb shadows of what might have been,
  Or hints of what may be beyond these days.

CHES. (to himself.) I love these moods of youth, I love the might
  Of untamed nature battling with despair.
  How firmly grasps the iron-handed earth
  The youthful heart, and lugs it forth to war
  With calm, unmoving woods, or silent lakes,
  Making it dastard in the sun’s light dance.
  Brave on, ye unbarked saplings, soon your boughs
  Shall wing the arrows of red manhood’s life,
  And then, as your low depths of ignorance
  Unfold, how shall you wonder at your youth.
  How flaunt the banners in the light of morn,
  How torn and trailing when the day-god sets.
  ‘Tis a brave sight with all sails up, to see
  The shining bark of youth dash through the foam,
  And sickening to the most, to look upon
  Her planks all started, and her rigging split,
  When she hugs closely to the beach in age.
  But I console myself for my gray hairs,
  By spinning such warm fancies in my brain,
  That I become a little thing again,
  And totter o’er the ground, as when I whipped my top.

  Your servant, sir, the day goes bravely down.

HEN. Through the red leaves, I see the morning’s glow.

CHES. ‘T is but the picture of some morning scene;
  A fair conceit the sun has in his head,
  And when he sets makes fatal flourishes.

HEN. I hear you jest with nature, that you mock,
  And fling queer faces at her holy calm,
  Write witty volumes that demoralize;
  Pray Mr. Chester do you fear the devil?

CHES. As I do nightfall. I have some night-fears,
  Some horrid speculations in my brain;
  And when the mice play hangmen in the wall,
  Or out the house the pretty frost-toes creep,
  I think, pest o’nt, what dark and doleful sound,
  If it were safe I’d raise the curtain’s hem.
  And when I puff away the cheerful light,
  The moonbeam makes a thief’s dark-lantern flit;
  My head is filled with horribund designs,
  And on myself I pack damned Macbeth’s part.
  I love to nourish such complexed conceits;
  I have a vein of dreadful longing in me,
  Was born to murder, and excel in arson,
  And so I love the devil, though broad day
  Has all the devilish aspects that I know.
  See, comes the gentle Mary, know you her?

HEN. Not I, my solitude hath its own figures.

CHES. (to Mary.) God speed thee, lady, it was opportune
  Your footsteps led you up this sheltered walk,
  For here is Henry Gray, my friend at least,
  And now is yours.

MARY. I willingly would know what Chester does,
  And Mr. Gray, I trust, will but forgive me.
  I rarely venture in these forest walks,
  Where leads that prithee? (To Henry.)

HEN. ‘T is by the lake, which gleaming like a sword,
  One edge of this green path, a peacock lance,
  Crosses in sport, and then descends away,
  And vanishes among the outspread moors.

CHES. And Mr. Gray, sweet Mary, knows the path,
  All paths that frolic in these devious woods,
  For he’s sworn friends with squirrels, steals their nuts,
  Divides with other beasts their favorite meat,
  Can show you hungry caves, whose blackening jaws
  Breathe out a little night into the air,
  Will stand you on the dizzy precipice,
  Where all whirls round you like a whizzing wheel,
  In truth his skill is perfect, so farewell.

HEN. Most lofty.
  I have clomb them, and there stood gazing
  On villages outspread, and larger towns
  Gleaming like sand-birds on the distant beach.
  I love the mountains, fur a weight of care
  Falls off his soul, who can o’erlook this earth.

MARY. And there you passed the night?

HEN. I have passed weeks
  Upon their very tops, and thought no more
  To fall upon the low, dark days of earth.
  Above, the clouds seemed welcome faces to me,
  And near the raging storms, came giant-like,
  And played about my feet. Yet even there,
  I feared for my own heart, lest I should grow
  Too careless of myself. Yonder the town,—
  You must excuse my absence, for the clock
  Rounds the small air-balls into leaden weights.

MARY. (alone.) I breathe, and yet how hardly,—a moment,
  What a thing am I,—a passing moment,
  Lifting from the earth my weary heart so sick,
  O’er-burdened with the grating jar of life,—
  This youth,—how sleeps the lake, how blue it gleams.

CHES. Ah! Mary alone,—indeed, has Henry Gray
  Shot like a rocket in the rayful air?
  A brilliant youth, at least his eyes are bright.

CHES. Mark you, he is a student, and knows the trick.
  He has a brother too, Vincent, a gay
  Free, dashing animal, or so I hear,
  But I hate characters at second-hand.
  You know they are towns-people; ‘tis an old,
  And comfortable family, I hear.
  Pest on’t, my brains won’t hold much matter now,
  I am too old for gossip.

MART. Has he a sister?

CHES. Who wants that good device? it is a part
  Of every comfortable family.

MARY. My father’s mansion, will you enter?

CHES. No, Mary, not to-night. (Mary goes in.)
  (Chester alone.) What comes of this,
  When two youths come together, but woman
  Rarely loves,—a play upon the word, So, So!
  As I grow old, I lose all reasoning.
  I hunt most nimble shadows, and have grown
  A perfect knave for picking out old seams.

GRAY. Good evening Mr. Chester. I call it evening,
  For I see you walk, and they say here your gait
  Is nightly.

CHES. I have seen Henry now, and Mary came,
  He had not known her,—strange!

GRAY. Mary, the banker’s daughter; a girl of promise.

CHES. They are old friends of mine, banker and all.
  I’ve held him on my arm, and made him quake
  At jingling coppers. He’s richer now-a-days.

GRAY. ‘T would please me to make more of them.

CHES. I will contrive it. There are times in life,
  When one must hold the cherry to his lips,
  Who faints to pluck a fair maid by the ear.

VIN. She is a lovely girl.

ADE. And rich as lovely.

VIN. I wish I knew her better.

ADE. One day is not enough, friend Vin, to know
  The mind of woman; many days must go,
  And many thoughts.

VIN. You will assist me, Adeline.

ADE. So far as in me lies,—I know not Mary.

VIN. But the sex is in your favor.

ADE. I know not that.

VIN. You made a good report on botany.

HEN. I’m glad you think so. ‘Tis a fair study,
  To spy into the pretty hearts of flowers,
  To read their delicacies, so near to.
  But Vincent, science at the best
  Demands but little justice at my hands,
  It has its masters, has its oracles,
  I am content to gather by the wall,
  Some little flowers that sport a casual life,
  To hover on the wing; who comes?—’Tis Chester.

CHES. Three frends in charming concert act their part.
  But Henry, I have news for you.

CHES. Last night, as I went walking in the wood,
  I practise often in these woodland walks,
  And on some nights I almost pluck the stars
  Like crystal plums from off the tops of trees,—
  But, as I said, I walked far down the wood,
  In that rheumatic kind of greasy gait
  I have accumulated, and I went
  Dreaming and dreaming on, almost asleep,
  If not quite half awake, until I reached
  The lake’s dim corner, where one ragged tree
  Let in a gush of fuming light. The moon
  Now being high, and at its full, I saw
  Upon that little point of land a shape,
  A fair round shape, like early womanhood,
  Kneeling upon the ground wept by the dews;
  And then I heard such dreadful roar of sobs,
  Such pouring fountains of imagined tears
  I saw, following those piteous prayers,
  All under the great placid eye of night.
  ‘T was for an old man’s eye, for a young heart
  Had spun it into sighs, and answered hack.
  And now the figure came and passed by me,
  I had withdrawn among the ghostly shrubs,
  It was Mary,—poor Mary! I have seen her smile
  So many years, and heard her merry lips
  Say so much malice, that I am amazed
  She should kneel weeping by the silent lake,
  After old midnight night-caps all but me.
  But you are young, what can you make of it?

HEN. What can one make of figures? I can see
  The fair girl weeping by the moonlit lake.

CHES. Canst thou not see the woman’s agony,
  Canst thou not feel the thick sobs in thy throat,
  That swell and gasp, till out your eyes roll tears
  In miserable circles down your cheeks?

HEN. I see a woman weeping by the lake;
  I see the fair, round moon look gently down,
  And in the shady woods friend Chester’s form,
Leaning upon his old, bent maple stick.

CHES. What jest ye? Dare you, Henry Gray, to mock
  A woman’s anguish, and her scalding tears,
  Does Henry Gray say this to his friend Chester,
  Dares he speak thus, and think that Chester’s scorn
  Will not scoff out such paltry mockeries?

HEN. Why how you rage; why Chester, what a flame
  A few calm words have lighted in thy breast.
  I mock thee not, I mock no woman’s tears,
  Within my breast there is no mockery.

CHES. True, true, it is an old man’s whim, a note
  Of music played upon a broken harp.
  I fancied you could read this woman’s tears,
  Pest on’t, I am insane; I will go lock me up.

HEN. (alone.) Ye fates, that do possess this upper sphere,
  Where Henry’s life hangs balanced in its might,
  Breathe gently o’er this old, fond, doting man,
  Who seems to cherish me among his thoughts,
  As if I was the son of his old age,
  The son of that fine thought so prodigal.
  O God, put in his heart his thought, and make
  Him heir to that repose thou metest me.
  Ye sovereign powers that do control the world,
  And inner life of man’s most intricate heart,
  He with the noble Chester; may his age
  Yield brighter blossoms than his early years,
  For he was torn by passion, was so worn,
  So wearied in the strife of fickle hearts,
  He shed his precious pearls before the swine.
  And, God of love, to me render thyself,
  So that I may more fairly, fully give,
  To all who move within this ring of sky,
  Whatever life I draw from thy great power.
  Still let me see among the woods and streams.
  The gentle measures of unfaltering trust,
  And through the autumn rains, the peeping eyes
  Of the spring’s loveliest flowers, and may no guile
  Embosom one faint thought in its cold arms.
  So would I live, so die, content in all.

MARY. (alone.) I cannot sleep, my brain is all on fire,
  I cannot weep, my tears have formed in ice,
  They lie within these hollow orbs congealed,
  And flame and ice are quiet, side by side.

  Yes! there the stars strand gently shining down,
  The trees wave softly in the midnight air;
  How still it is, how sweetly smells the air.
  O stars, would I could blot you out, and fix
  Where ye are fixed, my aching eyes;
  Ye burn for ever, and are calm as night.
  I would I were a tree, a stone, a worm;
  I would I were some thing that might be crushed;
  A pebble by the sea under the waves,
  A mote of dust within the streaming sun,
  Or that some dull remorse would fasten firm
  Within this rim of bone, this mind’s warder.
  Come, come to me ye hags of secret woe,
  That hide in the hearts of the adulterous false,
  Has hell not one pang left for me to feel?
  I rave; ‘t is useless, ‘t is pretended rage;
  I am as calm as this vast hollow sphere,
  In which I sit, as in a woman’s form.
  I am no woman, they are merry things,
  That smile, and laugh, and dream away despair.
  What am I? ‘Tis a month, a month has gone,
  Since I stood by the lake with Henry Gray,
  A month! a little month, thrice ten short days,
  And I have lived and looked. Who goes? ‘tis Chester,
  I must,—he shall come in.

CHES. You keep late hours, my gentle Mary.

MARY. Do not speak so. There is no Mary here.
  Hush! (Holds up her finger.) I cannot bear your voice; ‘tis agony
  To me to hear a voice, my own is dumb.
  Say,—thou art an old man, thou hast lived long,
  I mark it in thy tottering gait, thy hair,
  Thy red, bleared eyes, thy miserable form,
  Say, in thy youthful days,—thou art a man,
  I know it, but still men are God’s creatures,—
  Say, tell me, old man Chester, did thine eyes
  Ever forget to weep, all closed and dry?
  Say, quick, here, here, where the heart beats, didst feel
  A weight, as if thy cords of life would snap,
  As if the volume of the blood had met,
  As if all life in fell conspiracy
  Had met to press thy fainting spirit out?—
  Say, say, speak quickly; hush! hush! no, not yet,
  Thou canst not, thou art Chester’s ghost, he’s dead,
  I saw him, ‘twas a mouth ago, in his grave,
  Farewell, sweet ghost, farewell, let’s bid adieu.

  ‘T is well that I am visited by spirits.
  If ‘t were not so, I should believe me mad,
  But all the mad are poor deluded things,
  While I am sound in mind. ‘T is one o’clock,
  I must undress, for I keep early hours.

HEN. I cannot think you mean it; ‘tis some dream
  Of your excited fancy. You are easily
  Excited. You saw a nodding aspen,
  For what should Mary’s figure here?

MUR. It was her figure, I am persuaded.
  They tell strange tales, they say she has gone mad,
  That something’s crazed her brain.

HEN. Is that the story? I have been mad myself.
  Sometimes I feel that madness were a good,
  To be elated in a wondrous trance,
  And pass existence in a buoyant dream;
  It were a serious learning. I do see
  The figure that you speak of, ‘tis Mary.

MUR. I’ll leave you then together. (Enter Mary.)

HEN. (To Mary.) You have the way alone; I was your guide
  Some weeks ago, to the blue, glimmering lake.
  I trust these scenes greet happily your eyes.

MARY. They are most sweet to me; let us go back
  And trace that path again. I think ‘twas here
  We turned, where this green sylvan church
  Of pine hems in a meadow and some hills.

HEN. Among these pines they find the crow’s rough nest,
  A lofty cradle for the dusky brood.

MARY. This is the point I think we stood upon.
  I would I knew what mountains rise beyond,
  Hast ever gone there?

HEN. Ah! ye still, pointing spires of native rock,
  That, in the amphitheatre of God,
  Most proudly mark your duty to the sky,
  Lift, as of old, ye did my heart above.
  Excuse me, maiden, for my hurried thought.
  ‘T is an old learning of the hills; the bell!
  Ah! might the porter sometimes sleep the hour.

MARY. ‘Tis all revealed, I am no more deceived,
  That voice, that form, the memory of that scene!
  I love thee, love thee, Henry; I am mad,
  My brain is all on fire, my heart a flame,
  You mountains rest upon my weary mind;
  The lake lies beating in my broken heart.
  That bell that summoned him to the dark cell,
  Where now in innocence he tells his beads,
  Shall summon me beyond this weary world.
  I long to be released; I will not stay,
  There is no hope, no vow, no prayer, no God,
  All, all have fled me, for I love, love one,
  Who cannot love me, and my heart has broke.
  Ye mountains, where my Henry breathed at peace,
  Thou lake, on whose calm depths he calmly looked,
  And setting sun, and winds, and skies, and woods,
  Protect my weary body from the tomb;
  As I have lived to look on you with him,
  O let my thoughts still haunt you as of old,
  Nor let me taste of heaven, while on the earth,
  My Henry’s form holds its accustomed place.

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